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back from CONFIRMATION CAMP.

it was so so so fun. altho when i was there i kept missing my computer and stuff. partly because i hardly know anyone there since i pon last year totally and just cut in now. >.>

so anyway the first day was like getting to know everyone and setting up envelope thingies. you draw on these and then paste them on walls. and then people can write notes and put them in ur envelope thingy. and you have to talk about urself. with ur grp. i was in group 9 called whatever (yes i know) and uhhhh my grp members were michelle justin chelsea AAAAAAAAAAAAND delene. and me. and delene is a chio bu. so yay extra points.

then uhh, we had food and stuff yeah then went to bed. and did i mention this camp has soo many breaks. its like, if everything was crammed together without any breaks, it would be like 2 days only lor. but anyway.

second day also very boring just look at the chio bus and then watch some caterpillar clip and then lunch and then some other activity which i kinda forgot but it involved nuns yeah and then AND THEN. AND THEN. at night. everyone had to watch passion of the christ. or a partial clip of it. then Jesus was shown carryin the cross and being crucified. ouch that part was really painful.

which got me thinkin. they nailed him and all those gory stuff and yet he still didnt blame the people who did it. he totally rocks. like, he had the chance to own them but he went all "Father, forgive them but they know not what they do."

and i think thats really cool.

after that we were given some time to reflect alone but me paul chelsea and frances went to the swingy four seater swing swing thing and yea basically talk. i got swing sick there.

after we came back we had a healing session. its like, the room is darkened and candles are lit infront of a giant cross. then u are given a paper heart. (my paper heart lol) so everytime u hear something that u have experienced before u make a little tear at the heart.

then its like suddenly all the facilitators start sayin stuff like "useless" "no hope" "why cant u be like ur siblings" and etc.

it was pretty fucking scary.

so anyway there was sobbing and stuff from those emo girls BUT ASHURA-CHAN THOUGHT TO HIMSELF. ashura-chan must ganbatte, right? since my parents scold me its my own fault anyway. so yeah i sucked it in and made a few tears. then after that the nuns were like , "its okay to experience pain, let it all out then if you are ready to forgive kneel like so and someone will come over and place their hands on ur shoulders. "

yeah. but the problem was that ashura-chan has nothing to forgive. ashura-chan is an egoistical bastard who gives barely little thought to people's feelings. so i've been told. or maybe just a blunt guy. but yea.

so anyway i kneeled and stuff yeah then someone came over and did the stuff and yea after that we healed and were given a new paper heart so yep.

then went to the swing again with the same pple. and we got talking like stuff like masturbation and sex stuff. cos frances is this really great abc girl who has totally no qualms about embarrassment and she was like, "so you drink grow milk for your wang, to like, totally expand and stuff?" and i was like "no u" and she was like "yeah."

basically we had a hell load of fun there. oh yeah theres another chiobu her name is JOLENE. and she kinda got stalked by this guy called stuart cos they're in the same grp and i guess mr stuart fell in love with jolene.

then the last day mum came and volunteered some work and we did a childishy-crayon poster about the gifts of the lord. yeah. then we had mass. wa damn nice lor. sit beside delene (cos we had to sit in grps) and then in front got jolene. woot. and i got delene's msn. AND JOLENE'S MSN. and their frensters.

what can i say.

NOTHING HAHA.

p.s im not gay.